ramblin' on

I keep on intending to write, but I'm fining myself a bit stressed of late and with very little extra energy. Plus, I have so much to catch up on.  Which all clearly indicates a need for an update post in the bullet-point style I love so dearly:

• On April 27, I became Mrs. Military Man.  I really intend to write a full post on the day.  I was a total girly teary mess during the ceremony but made it through a part I'd long promised myself would happen -- we both read some words we'd prepared for the other (not vows, I like matching vows, but more of a message to the other person).  I'm totally taking the suggestion to include both writings in the eventual album and tempted to post my own ramblings.  Those exchanges included, I think it turned out to be a lovely day.  Our week in Florida was a lovely, relaxing escape as well!
• I wanted to throw a party the day I finished my Thank You cards!
• I also have been seeing a new set of docs and had a radiofrequency ablation.  I tried to believe it would work and that they'd zap away the nerves that were causing my pain.  Sadly, enough time has passed that I have to conclude it might have gotten a bit of the issue, but no more than 5-10% of the problem.  My follow-up was frustrating...at one point he said "but you're not there yet" which upset me since he may be new to my case, but my case (i.e. my pain) is not new.  Anyway, for now he's trying some topical medicines.  He did mention maybe looking at a spinal cord simulator but I think he feels like they are going to improve considerably in a year or two. 
• I've progressed well through the grieving process re my father, at least per Pain Shrink.  For brides who've had a similar loss, especially an unexpected one fairly close to the event, I highly recommend picking a day around a week ahead of time to just straight out mope.  It helped to assign a day of grief...not that grieving can be truly confined to a day, but I took one day to just be sad and it really helped.  Of course there were hard moments (I am lucky to have a step-father who served as my escort...I debated walking alone, even before the loss, given where I am in life but it would have been hard), but I think it was a lot better than it could have been.  There are some Dad-related issues that I'm having trouble with, but I feel somewhat at peace with my father in general and that helps across the board.  I still have an impulse to seek out his input on medical things and to send him random notes.
• Perhaps you recall my new-found fondness for aquaucise (and my classmates).  Well, I'm still going but now find myself on the other side of the class.  The Y's aquatic director asked me to take over teaching for the summer.  I'm loving it and getting great reviews (including from at least one woman who'd stay quiet if she wasn't pleased, a contrast to some who I think might just want me to feel good).  Not sure if they'll have me give the class back in the fall or stay on....particularly since I get the impression that most of the class prefers me to the most recent instructor.
• It may take a moment to see, but these are our recent visitors.  The first pic is the day they hatched.  In the second, one baby had already "fledged" (left the nest) and I caught the second as he was getting ready.  He sat and watched me for a bit and then I startled him and he took the big leap.  I think it is pretty cool to have the pics the day they hatched and the day (the moment!!) one of them left the nest.

Guide to Living With the Rambler

I've had millions of thoughts over the past months about blogging topics.  Yet, as may be expected, when I sit down to keep my commitment of writing more often, I go blank. 

My world continues to be dominated by the back issues, although wedding planning is rivaling medical matters as a source of stress lately!  I never really imagined throwing a full-on wedding again, and in many ways it is a much simpler affair than my "practice round," but there's still so much to do as the late-April date approaches.  Including figuring out why my computer refuses to be cooperative when it comes to my invitation envelopes (it won't put addresses even close to the middle of the envelope and feels "Mr. and Mrs. Tom Smith" is a two-line affair).

Like many couples these days, Military Man and I have already been living together.  There are certainly reasons why the "old-style" approach is nicer, but it does mean that he already knows many of my "quirks."  I actually provided him with warning regarding a number of them prior to move-in day, I didn't want any avoidable surprises.  Since I'm in bullet-point withdrawal, some important items about living with the Rambler:

• I come with books.  A lot of books.  Poor MM....he just watched as they kept arriving...and had to carry them down a flight of stairs (note: one paperback is light, hundreds get heavy). 
• It is my most noticeable feature, but all that hair doesn't stay put.  Seriously, I'm worse than a dog.  I'm not sure I shed more, but the dark, thick, long strands are certainly more noticeable...and quite the challenge for vacuums.
• The hair also means a LOT of conditioner.  I am not a make-up gal...I only wear a BB cream...but I have a number of hair "potions."  Pictures from before I found my go-to products provide proof of their worth.
• Really, the last hair-related item...I blow-dry my hair.  I can't do it in the bathroom because it frizzes like crazy.  I'm perfectly happy with my current set-up in the guestroom/treadmill-room and I've gotten much better at getting it done pretty quickly, but the sound of a hair dryer would definitely be on the soundtrack of my life.
• I am pretty sure I eat more cereal than a typical household of 4...maybe 6. 
• I still have my food issues.  I will likely need some of my own pantry-space and may need certain of your items kept in places I don't see often.  Like PB.  I've also been known to find the PB and leave a note promising to replace it after it "disappears" in a two-day period.
• Don't plan on late night conversations, at least that you want me to remember.  My current medication regime means I often forget the last 30 minutes or so each night.
• I need my workouts.  Even when it isn't the best idea for me and even if it means doing them at odd hours.  Lately, I lift at 10PM because that's when my body seems willing.  In my Boston days, I was on the treadmill before 5AM.  I got my own treadmill when I moved to State College and it is probably one of my most-loved and most-used possessions.  I was seriously grumpy this summer when it kept breaking down (and thrilled when they finally replaced it...I was just under the warranty wire)
• I call my car Betty.  If I live with you, I will probably name your car too.  I may name other household items as well (the aloe plant is named Sally). 
• I like saving wine corks.  I finally got a trivet to make out of some of them.  I still have dozens despite separating the ones I need for that project (delayed till post-wedding and till I figure out the best knife for trimming them).  And yet still keep more. 

Oh, and one more (though we all know I'll come back and add some to the above since I always think of things once I hit "Post"):

• I ramble.

Rambler Raves (pssstt....i save the best for last)

Apologies for the silence...I really intended to step up my blogging efforts but that just hasn't happened.  I'm dealing with some uncertainty on the back front (that phrase amuse me) and the pain's been rough.  It often saps my mental capacity and it has been taking longer to do my ghost-writing law blog posts so I have been neglecting this little corner.  I'd say I intend to rectify that, but I'm nervous about even making promises to myself.

Anyway, a simpler post today, making good use of my beloved bullet points and sharing some of the things your Rambler is loving these days:

• I have a love/hate relationship with my hair.  I got it cut recently and she took a bit more than usual and threw in a few more layers.  I'm finding it really tough to control and relying on my recently acquired flat iron when I need to look decent.  However, I'm loving Treseemme's Cashmere Touch Hyrdating Serum.  Left alone, my hair can feel kinda course and rough, but a few pumps of this product makes my hair feel nice and soft.
• I'm a new convert to Greek Yogurt.  No real brand rave here, I pick a lower calorie version which isn't always truly the best health option, but I have become a fan of the thicker texture and added protein boost.
• On a less healthy note, Jelly Belly Belly Flops rock.  They need to be ordered but they are still a major cost saver compared to the regular packs, especially given my addiction to them.  You get the leftovers that are misshapen or otherwise imperfect.  They warn that it may include some of the icky flavors from their specialty Harry Potter themed packs, but I've only had a few that tasted funky.  Most are from the typical 40 flavor pouches.
• On the "stuff normal folks don't talk about" front, I am a horrible teeth grinder.  One dentist said I was "impressive" after I chewed right through two temporary crowns, one metal.  After chewing through an expensive dentist-ordered night guard, I tried drugstore types.  I never found the "boil" ones comfortable and chewed through them pretty quickly.  The Sleep Right Guard has been MUCH better and much more durable.  I did actually trim it a bit to make it better for my small mouth but will try their "slim" option next (lasts longer, but not forever...I've had mine about a year and expect I have a couple months left).  It is one of the pricier drugstore options, but it definitely saved me money over time.  They do offer replacement if you chew through it or have other issues w/in a three or six month time frame (depends on specific style).
• I have an inability to not glance at clearance sections, including a small area in our local grocery store.  I picked up a Sweet Vanilla Fig body wash and lotion set for something like $6....the website lists it at $25.  Love the scent and the fact that it is from a small company that focuses on natural ingredients. 
• I'm moving slowly, but I am still enjoying reading for Harper....hoping to have the final pages of a book done and a new review up soon.
• And, the best rave of all, adapted from my recent Facebook status, posted during a mini-getaway with MM -- Best hotel upgrade yet... Checked in with a boyfriend,  checking out with a fiancé!  Love you more, mister. I couldn't have even imagined finding a partner as wonderful as you. Thanks for giving me the honor of saying "YES! "

retiring one gimmick, keeping another...

I confess....I'm retiring the "I confess" gimmick. I've been tired of it for eons but I'm beyond change averse. However, I know that's just plain silly and it's been annoying me rather than amusing me for way too long...

Of course, I am NOT retiring my love for bullet points:

• Still waiting on my CAT scan. I called a few days before X-mas to check on it and found out they mis-dated the order. The nurse seemed baffled by how it got dated March 2011, she swore it COULDN'T get backdated, but it meant it expired and never even went to the insurance company. They'd initially said to expect 2-3 weeks for approval so I checked back yesterday but have yet to get a return call.
• This one merits the confession label: Four Weddings has gone from treadmill fodder to the DVR's "record all new episodes" list (we recently got one for free for a few months as part of a new package...I'm telling myself I'll have no problem giving it up). The only other shows on the list are Once Upon a Time and How I Met Your Mother...the former since it's my fav and I don't want to deal with the On Demand hiccups and the latter because it's the only show I watch first-run that isn't offered On Demand.
• I really want to kick back up my reading. I've actually got a decent "to read" pile..not a bad thing on its own, but I want to catch up with my advance reader's reviews and feel a bit guilty being behind.  The pain is definitely a factor here....it's been pretty awful and interferes with my ability to focus as well as I'd like (and is also why I haven't kept my promise to myself to blog more, especially about things other than pain).
• Welcome to January where the holiday ads end and the ads for weight-loss, smoking cessation, and tax services begin. At least I haven't seen an ad for Valentine's Day yet....though the stores switched over on Dec 26.
• Speaking of V-Day -- I got Teddy MM (which sounds less odd when I actually use MM's name instead of his moniker) for V-Day in 2011. We'd only been dating about six weeks. I actually opened the package a few days early since I was visiting when the box showed up and it had the company name pretty prominently so it was clear it was a stuffed animal. The kinda corny, kinda sweet part: I don't think I've slept a single night without it since.
• Okay, I just realized that's not 100% true....there were a couple nights where Real MM and I'm an oddball and don't want items from someone around when I'm really upset. I may have also thrown both Teddy and Elly MM (an elephant from a crane machine) on the floor as a sign of my angry mood.
• We recently tried out an ice cream maker we got while holiday shopping (funny how things end up in one's cart that aren't actually gifts).  MM tried a dairy-free batch first and we weren't fans but we did a regular ice cream for the second batch and it ended up quite yummy.  We did, however, have to put it in the freezer to get it a better consistency since it wasn't nearly frozen enough when we first made it despite having the bowl in the freezer for more than the needed twelve hours.  Any suggestions?  It's just a small machine...the batch we made was only two servings and the included recipes seem to be between two and four servings each. 
• I've mentioned it before, but the Roomba is among the best choices we've made (I asked for it as a gift from my Mom for both of us and suggested it could count for my b-day too since it was pricey).  I can't help much with household chores and it saves MM from having to work more than full-time and come home to too many chores.  It is also more amusing than it should be to watch "the puppy" run about. 

Bullet-Point, Junior: Doc Update, New Toys (Roomba & Tempurpedic), & OnDemand Add (Shark Tank)

I confess...a few little things running through the Rambler's head....

• Doc update -- I'm not up for going in-depth, but I saw a new neurosurgeon this week.  He's ordering a CAT scan which I can have done here in the State College area and then he'll call to talk a bit (he's in Philly).  He did mention a follow-up surgery that would go in through the back and use more hardware.  Of course, he said a lot of the "I can't say it'll help" stuff, which I know he kinda needs t do.  He did all but call my results "weird" and definitely said it was really unusual (and utterly random, along the same "who knows why" lines).
• MM and I had been talking about it for a while but kinda randomly ended up in a mattress store a few weeks ago.  Our new Tempurpedeic arrived on Wednesday.  It definitely doesn't feel quite as heavenly as the store one yet but they say it can take some "breaking in" (people mention jumping up and down on them as part of the process!).  Hopefully it'll prove a good buy.  Love that they gave us a military discount (which we asked about) and an "owie"-discount (or "medical discount", which we didn't ask about and they offered since I did have my brace and we mentioned the issues I've had).
• We also got some early holiday gifts during out Thanksgiving travels.  Totally in love with our I-Robot Roomba.  Alternatively called "R2D2" and "the puppy," it's a really good addition to our home, especially since I really can't contribute much to housecleaning. 
• An addition to my OnDemand rotation is Shark Tank, an ABC show where inventors pitch products to investors.   Love that it is easy to watch out of order, hence being a good OnDemand fit.  Interesting side note from a quick browse: those who appear have to give five percent equity to Mark Burnett Productions. 
• They time the holidays quite well to follow after election ads end.

the bullet points return!

I confess....I'm overdue for a bit of bullet-point rambling....

• I'll be happy when the election is over and there are fewer divisive Facebook feeds.  I certainly could un-follow folks for the short-term so it really isn't anyone else's fault.  Politics does not always bring out the best in folks. Being in a "mixed" relationship is also tougher during the election season.  Gotta bite our tongues a lot and "obey the mat!"

• REM sleep is a good thing.  My brain has decided to interrupt it a lot & that's challenging.
• I've been wearing my brace and I can get out a bit on the weekends.  I do end up paying for it is I do more than 2 hours or so, and I definitely need to save the energy during the week to "spend" it on the weekend, but it is still good to play human occasionally.
• On that note, my cousin's wedding is next month (11/11).  Looking forward to it but nervous about the long day.  I've been told there are couches in niches throughout where I can hide and may even be able to nap in the bride's dressing room if it gets to that point (though I'd rather leave the bride her space!).  I'm a bridesmaid so the dress is set & I got more reasonable shoes than I wore last wedding so I'm not as worried about falling on my butt!  There'll be flip-flops stashed in a tote for post-ceremony/post-photo needs.  Bride kindly said she wouldn't care at all if I wore them the whole time, but I can handle a short spell in the nice shoes,  Honestly, it'll be a bit of work either way (extra meds may be in that tote too) so may as well be photo-ready!
• I've requested that our local supermarket carry my beloved Oatmeal Cookie Chunk.  Until then, Rocky Road-ish is my indulgence of choice.

• PA wine stores have a limited stock since they are tightly state managed.  I was thrilled to find Renwood Barbera is a new addition.  I had it years ago & could never find it again.  I'm a fan of big reds so not everyone agrees with my picks, but I find this easy to drink & quite tasty. 

• I do miss being able to do some more blogging (and feel an odd need to add random pics today), but I am sticking to the advice to mind my limits.  Some days that's just paying a bill, calling a doc about paperwork, & a bit of my own paperwork.  I need to just be okay with that.
• I am still doing the ghost-blogging...writing six posts (three each for two firm) a week, 500+ words on a relevant news story w/ a spin on applicable law or some other applicable topic. Sometimes it is tough to find a topic, especially for the smaller market one since there are limited news stories to use as a starter, and sometimes it takes way longer than it should (normal - 90min, worst - nearly 5h), but I like that I can say I'm a writer. I have not been able to do more pieces for the local freebie paper since my contact was ousted as editor, but hopefully that will change in time.
• MM needed his "fun car" inspected and had a few time issues.  I was beyond nervous, but I can now say I've been behind the wheel of a Corvette.  I suppose it is telling that my favorite part was the heads-up display (speed is displayed on the windshield).  I think folks were baffled by a black sports car staying under the speed limit!

• How did I end up watching What Not to Wear?  It's mostly treadmill fare and all reruns.  How come no one makes over a wardrobe for a gal whose clothes are acceptable but who still could use some guidance on what flatters her frame?  I  can add in a story about having lost all my beloved muscle tone, esp missing my toned tris, to give it interest.
• I got a "real phone"...texting, Internet, and all the like.  Love that I can deposit checks with it (using our secure home internet) since BOA is everywhere but in the State College region.  I had been good about using a guided relaxation app too for a while..fallen off that wagon but will get back on eventually since it was definitely good and Pain Shrink is a fan of such apps.
• Lots of other stuff coming up....MM's family event, the aforementioned wedding, Turkey Day...deep breaths and a reminder that giving myself the rest I need is vital to making it through busy times.

i know you've missed the bullet points

I confess...it's been a long time since I wrote a post that wasn't about pain issues or a book review.  I'm having a rough couple days after having felt a bit better for at the start of the week.  I am, however, also in bullet-point withdrawal...

• I had a better day last Friday and was able to get out for dinner. We decided to try a "new to us" Indian place.  I've never had a sit-down place ask my companion and I to share a (very small) four-seater table with another couple.  Our server didn't take our order or even stop by the table for a good thirty minutes.  I'd have blamed it on having been a "squeeky wheel" (I asked to move when I saw how tiny the table was and that another table opened) but I noticed the two couples who ended up sharing the table waited a good ten minutes longer than we did to order. All I ask is a"Sorry, we're short-staffed but we'll be with you soon."  That said, the food was excellent.  Tempted to try their lunch buffet sometime but not sure the food outweighed the service for dinner (menu only at night).
• I'm kind of interested in what happens on Glee but not interested enough to actually watch.  I've been known to break up with tv shows by skipping viewing in favor for reading the mini-recaps on TWOP.
• On the other hand, I really want to go to a taping of The Colbert Report.  It's past my bedtime but I catch the reruns of both it and Daily Show at 6 and 6:30 the next evening.  I do think that the Secret Service and GSA stories have made their jobs way too easy.
• Why is Dominos touting the fact that you can't make any substitutions on their artisan pizzas?  Some of them do look yummy (despite not being a Dominos fan) but I wouldn't call not allowing changes a selling point.
• MM and I went to feed the ducks on Monday.  It was extremely disturbing to watch a group of male ducks surround a female and take turns attempting to mate with her while she tried to flee.  We later saw the female lying in some higher grass where she was badly injured and looked near death.  Apparently this is actually quite common behavior among ducks.  I don't agree with labeling it "funny" and Cracked.com isn't the most highly regarded source but this article on sexual aggression by ducks is both fascinating and disturbing (warning -- wording may be upsetting).
• I need to get a bathing suit.  I'd glanced briefly last week and found a serious lack of one-pieces in the single-digit sizes.  Aside from not being fond of my belly these days and wanting to cover the "zipper" (aka the three or four inch scar from surgery), I need it for a visit with a physical therapist and a two-piece feels inappropriate.
• Jelly-Belly jelly beans have lots of fruit flavors so they are clearly a balanced meal.

The Anti-Bad Review: Stuff the Rambler Loves

I confess...I want to counteract my negative review (didn't share the link on FB, only posted b/c it was an advance copy so I'd agreed to review it).  So, let's do things The Rambler is loving:

• Hoffbrau & Mama Lucruezia -- The Hoff has awesome pizza (not that I had it last night or anything....lol....), even if they don't have a website and don't deliver. Mama L is the best delivery pizza and has flippin' awesome pierogies (non-fried but not exactly healthy given the amount of garlic butter).
• The Middle -- Best show no one's watching.  Total heart.  The family feels incredibly real with bickering and spats but they always have each other's back in the end (i.e. the teen boy stands up for his dorky sister but would never admit it).  It's actually a non-cable show that a family could watch together.  The actress who plays Sue says she's never recognized -- IMHO, that's the sign of truly inhabiting a role that isn't just a carbon copy of the actor (helps that she's 20 and the character is about 16).
• Rest Days -- I am hoping I really just need them and haven't fallen off the wagon, but I've taken some very light w/o days of late.  I am liking the fact that this meant listening to my body when it howled.
• Sleep -- Do people know about this thing?  Nasty bout with insomnia where I didn't get more than a couple hours Sun, Mon, Tues, or Wed.  Finally slept well on Thursday and it helped SO much.
• Blogs -- I read too many. 
• Jennifer Weiner -- I needed a "breather" after my last book.  She writes reliably good "chick lit" that isn't TOO chicky.  I'm a picky chick-lit reader....a lot feels too fluffy or too obsessed with shopping and boys....Weiner is a reliable pick when I need mental candy.
• Diet Cherry Dr. Pepper -- What?   I've mentioned that before?
• Room heating options -- It helps that it has been mild, but we haven't had to refill the oil reserves thatnks to an electric fireplace in the living room and an area heater in the bedroom.  They do impact the electric bill but it is still a LOT less than the oil heat would cost and it keeps it in the room we need.  I was nervous (my Mom passed on some paranoias) but they are much safer than they once were.
• The Centre County Gazette -- For letting me play reporter.  This week's is slow to load online for me but page 9 has my little piece on the United Way Campaign End Celebration (luckily they got some good photos from someone else...mine sucked!).  I get a small stipend...which carries me back to the first bullet (with a bit leftover....the good side of not delivering is not paying a delivery tip!). 

some random political ponderings

I confess....I'm gonna get political up in here...

• I'm thrilled that California courts stood up for marriage equality.  This it truly an issue where I just don't get the opposition.  If your religion prevents gay marriage, don't get one....and no one will even make your church perform one.  Marriage is a legal status that should be open to consenting adults regardless of gender.
• What would the groups saying religious employers shouldn't have to cover the pill say about me?  Okay, the "no baby" part helps and all, but I take it to STAY UPRIGHT.  Without the pill, I cannot function.  I haven't heard whether the anti-pill folks care about this...
• I will likely vote for Obama. I can't decide if I'd prefer an easier opponent to beat or prefer someone I'd rather see in office if Obama loses. In 2000, I voted for McCain in the primary....I didn't have the time to caucus, VA had an open Republican primary, and I preferred him to Bush.
• Moon colony?  Really?!? 
• PACs are scary. 
• I have said this before (heck, I've said all this before), but I wish we could require a certain proportion of campaign money be matched with charitable funds.  Or money towards the national debt.  If you can spend on glorified advertising, you can spend on something helpful too.  Yes, that is a value statement that political advertising is rarely helpful, at least in today's environment where there's plenty of news outlets available for true informational messaging. 
• I prefer Colbert to Stewart.  That's more entertainment than political.  Then again, I'm not sure there's a difference these days.

Really, I mostly wanted to say the first of the bullets but felt the need to make a few more to round things out (and b/c a HS teacher said to never have just one item in a list).

bullet rambles....

I confess....

• My little corner of the Internet hit 10,000 views (not counting folks on "readers"). Pretty cool, though not such a big number given that I've been blogging since mid-2009.
• I love the movie Hook.  IMDB and then Wikipedia taught me the little boy became a lawyer and now a law prof at Case Western.  Mean Me thinks tie was not kind to his adorable-ness.  Mean Me feels guilty for saying
• My Fight Like a Girl story posted last week.  It is largely about the endo journey w/ a bit of the back thrown in.
• I have a doc appt on Wednesday.  Cheer my bones on!!  Hopefully I am fusing well.
• PT was tough today and I'm not sure why.  Nothing new on the plate, just struggled through it all.  I have more walking to do but feel lazy.
• I've been eating horribly lately.  And it shows on the scale and in my jeans.  I'm not motivated to improve though...
• I'll post two book reviews soon, one I was sorely disappointed in and another that was a really nice surprise (a giveaway win).
• Still loving Once Upon a Time but not a fan of the storyline in this week's coming attraction.  I do like getting more backstory involving the Evil Queen though....she is wonderfully acted and just superbly icy. 

withdrawal set in...bullet-point time!

I confess...I'm in bullet-point withdrawal!!

• After being sent home from PT on Monday, I drove to a doctor's office and made an appointment.   We're treating a couple issues and I do think I'm feeling a bit better.  The inventor of the effective medicine for tummy cramping is my hero.  Let's hope my insurance plays nice with the appointment and tests (blood, urine, and x-rays). 
• I miss Zappy.  I had to send the TENS back b/c it was out of network.  I will look into another once the prior bullet point bills are cleared.
• I believe in celebrating heroes.  I know Joe Paterno did a world of good for the school, even outside the football world.  I also think he truly felt like he lacked the tools to handle the allegations of abuse when they first surfaced.  I can't decide how I think this impacts his legacy.  I do think he should have done more but can't decide how much that should tarnish his good deeds.
• I'm in love with Once Upon a Time, even though I hate the little boy and am bugged by the married David macking on Mary Margaret.  I can't quite buy the story some folks are spouting that his marriage to Kathryn doesn't count since it is part of the curse's delusional nature.  He THINKS he's married and he's cheating....that's enough to bother me.  That said, the Evil Queen/Regina is among the most deliciously evil characters ever.
• I'm sad that Parenthood seems not to be adding new episodes to On Demand.  Neither is Up All Night so it may be an NBC issue.  We do have an internet-to-TV line but I need to learn how to use it, especially since these are more likely to be shows I watch on my own.
• MM had never had Snickerdoodles before I made them last week.  Poor deprived boy!!
• I go for a back follow-up next week (2/1).  Root for bone growth!
• I haven't done well on gaining control of my weight and dropping the vanity pounds.  I'm also wondering if that's because my new set-point is higher than my "perfect" scale number.  Though I've also definitely failed to "earn" any losses given that I comfort eat when sick (yes, even when nausea is an issue....it felt better w/ brownies!).
• I'm not quite done and the review will come, but I'm hugely disappointed in The Marriage Plot.  I don't care about the characters at all.  I see Eugenedies' brilliance in flashes but it is nowhere near the level of my Middlesex love. 
• It has been a mild winter but I'm still cold.
• I like blogs that have frequent dog pictures (puppy porn!!).  Even if they all make me a little sad since it isn't going to happen with my allergies. 
• I buy MM random cards.  I suppose it was inevitable that I got one for the second time!  I've read them all in CVS and can't recall which I just read and which I bought.  And, yes, he knew it was a repeat.

hints from the lazy rambler

I confess...I am not handy, fancy, or fashion-forward.  I think that this makes me an ideal hint-er.  Heloise spends a lot more time on everything than I do...it takes special skills to be lazy.  So, for my lovely readers, assorted tips from the Rambler...

BEAUTY

• Although I kick them off at some point every night, I tend to start out with socks on in bed.  I like slathering my feet with lotion beforehand, ideally sitting on the bed so I can avoid standing after socking-up.  Helps keep my gym-worn feet a bit softer.
• Maybe this is obvious but I didn't start doing it until I was in my 20s...in the shower, I'll shampoo first and then put on conditioner. I'll shave and wash up while the conditioner soaks in. Multi-tasking both saves water and lets the conditioner work longer than if I was twiddling my thumbs for a minute.
• Another hair tip -- I have THICK and long hair. I do NOT need volume but, when I've been able to w/ the back issues, I flip and dry my hair upside down a bit first. It speeds drying by getting to the underlayers and I finish upright which takes out the excess volume.
• Plucking eyebrows is easier after face-washing...kinda similar to shaving after exfoliating.  Both make it easier to get "at" the hair and do a thorough job.

MONEY-ISH

• I pick and chose generic products. Most drugstore stuff is pretty equivalent, especially medicines since they are subject to rules. I test out generic sodas....some are perfectly fine but others will go to waste because they simply aren't as good. Unless there's a sale, most of the store-brand yogurts work fine for me but I see a marked difference in frozen meals. 
• If I'm buying something online, I'll do a quick search for "STORE coupon codes". More often than not, I can get some degree of discount or free shipping. It takes a few minutes to dig through the websites and try codes to see if they work, but it is totally worth it. I find I buy stuff I don't really use if I focus on paper coupons, but this is focused on something I'm already buying. 
• I use the same credit card for almost all online purchases. I haven't had any issues, but I'd be able to spot a fraudulent charge faster since I check the bill knowing it is the riskier one. 
• I don't carry a credit card balance. Obviously, this isn't possible for everyone. It is nice though to have a card you know you'll pay off....you can pick one with good rewards that might have a higher APR. My Amazon Visa isn't the best rate but the points add up and the rate is irrelevant since I wouldn't use it if I didn't know I could pay the bill. Folks with a balance could use a lower interest one for bigger bills but still keep a good points one for bills they can pay.

HOUSEHOLD

• Not only is men's Barbasol cheaper than frilly girl shave gels, I like it MUCH better. However, I suppose because most men don't shave in the shower, it lacks the rust-proof bottom. When I don't have it sitting on another item, it leaves awful rust rings. Solution that totally works -- Coat the bottom "ring" with clear nail polish. Easy and effective.
• I have two laundry hampers. I kept ending up building a new "pile" when the hamper was holding clean clothes that I hadn't gotten around to putting away. The spare is smaller, which encourage me to eventually put away stuff, but it keeps PJs and sweaty gym stuff from sitting on the floor for a day or two mid-laundry-process.
• I haven't been able to help with cleaning much of late, but I always do bigger jobs post-workout. It allows me to shower after cleaning, which helps with allergies and just feels "earned". It is also nice to shower in a freshly cleaned bathroom.
• A little plastic crate keeps my bedside "necessities" (meds, lotion, etc) handy but under control.

WRITING

• When I need to write something professional, I try to spread out writing and editing. I find it too easy to overlook errors immediately after they are made and I am more likely to catch more intangible things that are "off" (like a sentence that made sense to me when I wrote it but wouldn't make sense outside my head) when I am a bit removed.  
• I also find that the tip-of-my-tongue, perfect word is more likely to come when I step away than when I'm sitting and pondering. If time isn't on my side, the Word thesaurus is a start but sometimes I get closer if I just play with Google a bit and either type in the less-ideal-substitute or the general context.
• The number one thing to focus on in ANY writing project -- the audience.  I've written for judges, lawyers, hiring professionals, and the general public.  Heck, I've written for my own amusement.  I try to keep the audience in my head, especially if it is something I'm being paid for, and to respect the reader while not assuming knowledge they may not have. 

RANDOM

• I think I've said this one before, but the little "button bags" that carry spare parts for new clothes are PERFECT for stashing medicine.  I tuck the bag into a pocket of my wallet w/ "might be needed" medicine and it keeps them clean and easy to access.
• I like leaving random cards for MM.  I'll buy a few at a time so I've got one to leave out if the mood strikes or cheering-up is needed.
• I totally plan my workouts around mindless but entertaining TV.  It makes the treadmill time much easier. 

gratitude 2011

I confess....I am compulsively early.  In college, it was pretty much the norm to be late and I recall one friend saying she tried really hard to be on time w/ me because she knew being 10 minutes late meant I'd been there for 20.  In one organization, they told people to put "1:50" on their calendars for a 2PM meeting.  They told me to put 2:10.

So, a pre-turkey gratitude post.  I am focusing on the past 12 months rather than just the world in general so don't expect the more general "having food to eat" stuff.  I AM grateful for such things, but I want a more specific focus.  And bullet-points.

In 2011, I am grateful for:

• Finding MM.  There's so much I could put here but I'm gonna limit myself and go with the moment I said I was jealous of the backrub he was giving the host at a NYE gathering and the "Don't worry, you're next" response.  We'd talked a bit earlier in the evening and the first kiss didn't come till the next night (we go with 1/1 as the official marker...the backrub was well after midnight) but that's when it really started.
• My mom "letting" me go to move in with MM even though it was crazy fast but more because I know she and my step-dad would always take me back in if it hadn't worked.
• My dad for answering all the million medical questions and for him and my step-mom babysitting me when I first got out of the hospital.
• My bones for growing.  I see horror stories of surgeries failing and knowing that bone growth was happening was a relief.  Hopefully next year I'll be grateful for being "fully fused" (i.e. the bones have grown all the way and the surgery was a success) and for the pain being a memory.
• Centre County, PA.  Despite the press deluge on our area recently, I really like it here.  It is such a friendly place...our mail-lady chased us down so I didn't miss a package once and several people came to help when my car got stuck after some snow. 
• Fireballs.  Yes, they make the list.  Think jalapeno poppers but in pizza dough.
• Risotto Cakes.  I'll stop at two food nods.  MM uses credit card points for Omaha Steaks orders and we added these since I'm not a big red meat gal.  They are freakin' awesome.
• A home treadmill. Yes, it is an odd one to include (though pairs well with the food), but I really love having it. It has been especially helpful in recovery since going to the gym and being able to only do a slow walk would have been even harder for me and having full cable (only about 10 channels at my gym and obv do have to consider other folks) is really helpful when I'm on the "long and slow" route.
• Electric fireplaces.  I've never had one before and didn't really "get" the concept but it totally keeps the living area warm without turning up the oil heat.  It is pretty too....not quite the same as a "real" fire but it also avoids having to leave the flue open and losing heat after plus it is super easy. 
• The fact that I can say I have been paid to write.  It isn't fancy, just ghost-writing for an attorney's blog (personal injury focus but also branching out) and the style is dictated by the forum, but it totally still counts.
• People who actually read my blog.  Love that the number of followers went up a bit and know other folks click over from FB or use blog reader apps. 

I inevitably think of other things to say after I hit post.  No promises that I won't come back and edit.  But I'll throw in a catchall and note that I'm thankful for the things and folks I've found in the past year that enrich my life and I think the best things are sometimes the ones we don't even think to list.

bullet-points are addictive

I confess...I totally go into bullet-point withdrawal:

• Thanks to a friend who suggested me as her replacement, I am ghost-writing a lawyer blog.  It ain't fancy, just three posts a week for a personal injury lawyer out in CA, but I'm actually able to say that I am being paid to write!  Totally one of my dreams...even if it is in a very lay audience style and hampered by the need to include search engine friendly phrases that don't always feel natural. 
• Weaning out of my brace sounded so wonderful.  I could not WAIT to be free of it (though decided it would not burn well and I couldn't have a brace bonfire).  I was NOT ready though for feeling like I'm back in the early weeks of recovery.  It makes sense that I'd have pain and spasms and my back wakes up, I just hadn't thought it through.  Not fun. 
• Also not fun...sinus issues.  I thought a half-developed cold was to blame but it took a break and returned so I'm not so sure.  MM uses a saline sinus rinse but I'm a bit chicken about trying it myself (and would need to buy my own since it sounds even worse than sharing a toothbrush).
• Gingerbread marshmallows are AWESOME but can never again be bought by me since they disappeared in two days.  But, if you have self-control, totally try them
• This post is on my mind.  I am refraining from a too early check-in on year 33 (though that post was a bit pre-turning 33 itself).  A lot of great changes, but still waiting on one big one.
• Funny how events turn.  I was dumped from a job recently for having the nerve to ask about salary or non-traditional hours (even though I agreed to EVERYTHING in the end and only insisted on seeing paperwork...see ramble here).  That job involved young children.  So, of course, the next job I get in the process for (beyond just an app...millions of those) involved convicts.  And, yes, parental types, I will make sure it is all safe and secure if I'm chosen for an interview beyond my 10min intro convo.
• Still fascinated by the PSU story, more than I feel like I should be.  I think the tension b/w legal and moral duty is part of it.  As for Sandusky's interview where he admitted showering w/ kids, lots have questioned how a lawyer let that happen.  Well, the lawyer was once representing a teen girl in an emancipation proceeding and ended up having a sexual affair with her.  Started when she was 16 (legal in PA, apparently, which continues my legal/moral divide), she had his kid at 17 and did marry him years later and had 1 more before they split).
• It feels like eons ago, but I saw Herman Cain's conference on the harassment claims and was surprised to see a familiar face.  His attorney had joined my firm about a year before I left.  He'd previously had a small practice that included several high power media-related cases.  I wondered how the case got approved by a big firm machine and found out he'd since left the firm.  The cool wrinkle...one of the three partners was a friend and office-neighbor of mine at the firm.  She's a liberal who got me involved in NARAL and who is now a Democratic member of the GA State House.
• We get a crazy number of wrong number calls on our new-ish home line.  And they are for at least 5 different people....several from collection folks.  Sixty percent are machines that never have a "you have the wrong folks" option.
• MM and I shall have our own Thanksgiving this year.  I haven't reserved a turkey but was glancing yesterday.  I'd hoped they had a stand-alone turkey breast but only found full turkeys and cutlets.  He's the cook but I may be the shopper and I'm not sure what I'll get....leftovers are normal but a whole turkey's leftovers, esp since I'm not a huge fan of actual turkey and freakishly like turkey cold cuts but not roasted turkey, after only 2 diners is a bit much.  I plan to make my mom's lox/smoked salmon rolls as an app and might get my act together enough to make a cheesecake too.  The secret crust ingredient is Zwiebacks, the biscuits often used for teething tots.

Trick or Treat: Halloween Memories, Bullet-Pointed (of course)

I confess...I couldn't pass this thought up once it popped in my head during my walk.  I'd been pondering past Halloweens AND bullet points are always my style....

 

TRICK (or my less fond Halloween memories)

• When I bought my Atlanta house (April or May), one of the things I was most looking forward to was my first Halloween as the home owner.  I'd manned the door in HS but lived on campus in college and my law school rentals, like the apartment I had my first year in ATL, were not in a trick-or-treat area.  I planned my day out to leave early and had my bowl ready.  Of course, my boss called at 4.  She insisted an item needed doing now, although when I put it on her desk at 7:30 she was gone for the night and I totally could have done it the next AM before she got it.  Missed my first house-owner Halloween and got harassed by some older teens boys on the way to my car.
• I did get to man the door another time in ATL.  My neighborhood had mostly 3BR homes...the master suites were huge but the other rooms so I expected mostly littler kids as they weren't really sized for older kids.  I had my light still on since I knew I hadn't seen one neighbor and got a big batch of teens (likely from a complex nearby).  I'm a "here's the bowl, pick what you want" type and the five teen boys (no costumes) each took a HUGE handful without even a polite nod.  But that's not what bugged me the most.  At the back of the pack, two teen girls each had on a little mask and each carefully picked one candy and said "Thank you, Ma'am" (it's the South...you really can't get offended by Ma'am).  I wanted to bring them in and explain to them they should find better boys.

 

TREAT (Halloween smiles)

• We moved to PA when I was entering fourth-grade.  Our neighborhood had a lot of kids right at my age...mostly the "oldest" in the families given the time it was built so some a little younger too.  There was a lot of farmland then (now there are more houses) and our area was one of the best suited so many kids had their friends come to our area.  Totally great hauls as a kid and a lot of fun when I switched to door-duty....we seriously got 100 kids.  Usually gave out the typical stuff but Mom and I made like 20 treat bags for the kids we knew better.  Side note: I was actually back last year but I think it was the first year they got NONE...the same people own most of the homes and so the age factor has meant it trickled down and only sometimes got a few grandkids popping over at the end of the night.
• One year in college, two friends and I decided to go to a neighborhood.  We were VERY polite and joked with everyone that we knew we were old but liked candy (and went late enough that they had enough for the real kids).  I was a witch...like I always was as a kid given the long dark hair.  One friend was Nature (this fit her).  The other wore the first-one's skirt up around her neck (a good six inch height difference and a flowy skirt = really long even at her neck)...we went back and forth as to whether she was "The Skirt" or "The Arm-less Wonder".
• My Boston apt had very few kids but I still hurried home my first year there with some hopes.  You were supposed to tape a pumpkin picture to your door if you welcomed treat-ers (indoor halls so no lights).  I saw a mom and tot walking by my door just as I came out of the stairs.  I called to them that I had my pumpkin and begged for a moment.  Mom and son kindly let me run in, tape up the pumpkin, and even close the door so he could knock.  He was my only one but he was cute and so patent and totally worth it.
• I had the pumpkin kit and the pumpkin for a bit before I got the guts to carve it.  Just not a part of my childhood and I was convinced I'd mess it up.  In ATL, a new neighbor held a carving party...I attended but passed off carving duties since I was intimidated since I knew she was a children's book illustrator....which was silly of me since they rocked.  Anyway, I needed a distraction one day last week so dove in.  I present Tom (b/c EVERYONE calls the turkey Tom and I'm unique)

 

• (I can't indent w/ a new bullet...) I actually "messed up" and left it thicker than recommended but was glad b/c those arms threatened to snap.  Thank you to MM for the pic (my phone makes calls....that's pretty much it).  Oh, and the oddness is Vaseline which the Internet said would help prevent rot.
•  I also did toast up Tom's seeds...I went online for suggestions but ended up winging it based on what we had and what we like (read: garlic and a few types of pepper). They turned out REALLY good. I made MM tell his parents since his Dad thinks I should learn to be domestic and mt using the oven is always a rare event
• When I went to toss out the pumpkin innards, this was at the door: http://gifts.personalcreations.com/flowers/Costumed-Halloween-Plush-Bear-30055896?ref=PCRorganicgglgeneric_ipersonal+crations&viewpos=6&trackingpgroup=PHALLOW.  Well, mine says my name instead of Ryan...that would be odd. 

Happy Halloween all!!  I'm told we only get a handful here but I'm still excited. I have silly little window clings that are too small for the big window and Tom will move to the porch. 

(bullet) point-ilism

I confess...I often spend treadmill time contemplating post titles. 

• I suppose it was time...last year I wore out on Bones and CSI, this year it is NCIS and House.  The episode about Abby's history pulled me back to NCIS this week and MM enjoys it so it might still get watched, but I'm just no longer intrigued by either.  My disinterest in The Good Wife is more puzzling since it is only the third season so it isn't the "Mad About You" issue (where shows outlive the interest in them) nor is it the time-slot switch since I watch On Demand. 
• More TV -- I love The Talk last season but they dropped two hosts without a single word this year and one of the new ladies is beyond grating. It still makes the treadmill watching routine but doesn't compel me to walk any extra to watch the end and I won't be surprised if it joins the "just suddenly dropped" crew.
• Wearing a sweatshirt to the supermarket today meant the brace was hidden for the first time since surgery.  This resulted in some odd glances as I struggled with soda cans.  I'm used to hidden illness issues, but the visible brace has been helpful in putting others on notice that I'm not at the top of my game.
• The long presidential season means fodder for the columnists and an even greater financial factor in a candidate's viability.  I wish there was a way to institute a rule requiring that campaigns make a certain amount of charitable donations linked to the amount they spend campaigning (ideally nice non-controversial ones).  I know there are forced speech issues and it isn't really viable, but I still like the concept.
• We spent the weekend at an annual party with MM's extended family.  A bit out of my element, but fun...and one relative cooks up funnel cakes every year so I had a happy belly.  MM is also impressive at skeet-shooting once he gets warmed up.  On another note, the stink bugs were INSANE.  Seriously, DOZENS on the screen door (they do use a treatment that is pretty effective at keeping them outside).  I was reading outside and had to call "uncle" when the kept dive-bombing me (and my book).  Crazy.  I could not survive them on a daily basis.
• I'm definitely in a hard place in body-image terms.  I tried a "diet" but gave it up and have had a lot of rebound-eating issues.  I am trying to get them back under control and find the right place between being the diet mis-step and overeating.  I do need to drop a bit to be at my happy place but I need to do it without mental harm.  I should write a real post on this but I need to be feeling stronger before I can devote that energy to the topic to avoid triggers.
• I loved the gorgeous weather we had the past week.  The weather guys were totally on point when they noted there is a decent temperature drop ahead but that it was only getting the weather back to October norms.  I feel like 2011 has been the year of nutty weather and was glad it finally manifested in a good way.
• MM's family is politically very conservative.  MM needs to respect my views but there's no reason to make it an issue with his parents so I stay quiet.The first time I mentioned my alma matter, Haverford, his dad remarked about its liberal bent.  I replied with a comment on small class size.  He's mentioned it a few times since and then finally said that he noticed I quite deftly managed to change the topic every time :) 
• We live near the local HS.  We can hear the announcements, both daily and sport-oriented, but they sound pretty much like the adults on Charlie Brown.  I was still happy to hear the announcer sounding excited after last week's football game.  I'm no sports fan, but the poor kids had been 0 and 5 for the season...spectacularly so (35-10, 41-6, 51-0, 50-0, 56-11).  An odd love for the small-town world and an underdog made me excited when last week's opponent was 1-4.  Bellefonte won last week, 17-12, and I was happy for them.  And their mommies.  I get excited when I've seen a first-timer up at an MLB game because I imagine their mommies being so proud after years and years of carting them to practices and games.
• On a more serious note...I've read that Topeka decriminalized domestic violence.  To save money.  Okay, there is still state law recourse but this is NOT the way to save money.  I can think of other things to decriminalize instead (even if I don't partake....).

bulletpoint withdrawal...

I confess....I'm feeling bullet-point withdrawal:

• Dear Service Folks -- 8-12 is a decent-sized window.  If a customer calls at 1 when no one has showed for said window, the customer is unlikely to react well to being told the window has changed to 8-5.  Especially if you are befuddled when it is suggested you might have TOLD the customer of the change.
• I love Community.  Okay, I love Abed.  Well, I love most of the other folks too but would be quite pleased to see Chang disappear.
• I also love the ad with Jimmy Fallon seeing his pie-chart shows a small group that does NOT like more money and where he then argues with a toddler in the "no phase".  But I'll admit that the first time I referenced it I didn't get the product right so it may not be all that effective.  And the second time I named the wrong Jimmy...which is more about my clueless-ness.  I'd be a lovely person for a famous person to sit next to on a plane.  I'd leave them alone since I would not recognize them (unless it was Abed).
• Still arguing with the scale.  It is also being tempermental.  I may have tried stepping on it a couple times in a row and saw different numbers (by over a pound and a half).  Like I need a factor to add in to my mental issues....yes, I could decide it is even MORE meaningless but I'm more likely to feel the need to check several times in a row.
• Recovery update -- Just frustrated.  With still having pain when I feel like I shouldn't and with the darn brace I have to wear when I'm out of bed.
• Another blog linked to this book: Think: Straight Talk for Women to Stay Smart in a Dumbed Down World.  I read pieces on the Amazon preview and was intruigued (but haven't ordered it yet).  The theme isn't new...the sad lack of intelligence and the fact that it is socially acceptable to know the names of Housewives while not knowing the branches of our government...but it does seem really well-done.  I'll wait till I can get a cheap used version though...and till I'm in the right mood for it.
• How have I become a TLC watcher?
• I have a love for small companies.  I had a not-so-great experience though with a smaller beef jerky brand (another addiction I did NOT see coming) and did let them know.  They offered to send another flavor to see if I'd change my mind.  When I was indecisive and asked for advice (re which might have less of the greasy feel that turned me off before), they said that they were mailing both.  Not naming the company since it isn't a product-rave, but the service at a small company is always so much nicer than a big name.
• A post by another blogger made me confess in her comments that I often refer to bloggers I follow as "friends" even though I may not actually know them.   Oddly, I probably know more about some of the ladies who post regularly than I do about some "real life" friends.  I do appreciate the few people who are both bloggers and real-lifers. 
• MM had a seven day week last week.  I am glad he only has a three day week this time.  When I want to be, I can call myself an only child (steps and halfs but none grew up in my home) and I guess I don't want to share him with his office.

P.S.  I'm curious how the FB revamp affects people seeing this since I know several folks come over from my FB status updates.

rainy rambles

I confess...I had a screening interview that asked about my presentation style and I totally confessed my love for bulletpoints.

• We got a reverse-911 emergency services call last night warning of 7+ inches of rain.  MM felt bad about it but did ask I try and tend to our wet basement occasionally during the day.  I started with a towel but that wasn't back friendly...filled half a gallon bucket with wetness that way and then wised up to using a sponge mop for the next half bucket.  Slower but back-friendlier.
• MM and I survived my cooking last night.  Made my mussels dish.  Since it says to use pepper "to taste", I never put in the same amount and it was less spicy this time but still yummy and you could appreciate the tomato and basil flavors more.  Sadly, one plastic bowl did not survive my klutzy-ness.  It is well and good to pour the mussels into a bowl to serve more easily, but one should NOT put said plastic bowl on the stovetop when doing so (insert "I'm truly an idiot" smiley here).
• First follow-up doc appt is tomorrow.  I'm still in a lot of pain and know as soon as four hours is up and the one med wears off.  I've tried to reduce it but my body isn't ready yet.  The weather does NOT help.  The appt also involves an x-ray which I'm nervous about.  Fusion surgery is kinda cool in that the surgeon facilitates but your body really does the healing by growing bone.  The x-ray will show if that's happening...it usually does, but some patients "fail to fuse" so fingers crossed.
• I am thinking about a short-term style diet fix beginning sunday and then pretty much weekdays for a bit.  I do NOT usually recommend these but I DO think they can help for folks who generally have good habits and put on a few pounds due to an outlying event.  I will be sure it is a protein and calcium-rich plan and it won't be for too long...just getting back on track.  Waiting till Sun since there are dinner plans Thurs and Sat.
• I am not girly, but my hair does go nutty in wet weather so I can be a bit of a rain-phobic.  I have also been feeling sympathy for the local teen girls as it has poured yesterday and today.  First two days of school AND frizz are not fun (well, I was clueless as a teen, but it would majorly suck for a non-total-dork).
• Watched the first episode of Wonderfalls on DVD.  Totally fun, quirky world.  Speaking of which, I can't wait for Community to start.  My Abed love trumps over my total dislike for Chang.
• Hoping to get the nod for PT from the doctor.  There's a new PT place really close to us but I can't find any history on it....or really on anything in our town.  My awesome Boston PT was asking around in State College for me but so far doesn't have a recommendation (he volunteered to help...we've stayed in touch regarding my progress and the surgery choice).  Everything is REALLY tight and I can't really stretch on my own.  And I want to build back muscle without harming anything so need the professional guide.
• I was sent home from the hospital with a sponge-on-a-stick for foot and leg cleansing without bending.  I quickly upgraded to a nicer back brush.  Seriously, a new item on my favorite things list.  More for how great it feel on my back than the actual leg-cleansing that I bought it to do.  It will definitely remain post-healing.  (I want to give this a good review but don't want to create another freakin' login account...I have had no problems with the product).
• I HATE the PSA that tried to tell parents their babies will all die of whooping cough if the parents aren't vaccinated.  They say "up to 80% of babies get it from family members."  Of course, that is only for babies who GET IT at all and the small print notes the statement only qualifies where they can identify the source.  Well, OF COURSE that's true.  Babies are around mostly family and professional caregivers, the latter of whom are likely required to keep up with vaccines.  And, if they get it from some stranger in an elevator, then there won't BE an identified source and it won't be counted towards the stat.
• One bonus to central PA versus MA is that my fall allergies have at least waited until early-September instead of starting up in mid-August. 
• Allergies make me think of puppies.  I like puppies.  No, I cannot have a hypoallergenic one...they STILL bother me.  And I want a golden lab.  I'll just keep a puppy in my head.  Bonus: no poop-scooping. 
• An addition -- After hearing about it for a while, MM and I finally tried Pinnacle Gummy.  We all know I'm a red wine girl (promise I'm not as much a lush as I sound like!!), but the Pinnacle flavors are kinda cool...esp the chocolate whipped cream!  Gummy seriously tastes like Swedish Fish....well, vodka soaked Swedish Fish (I recall folks soaking gummy bears, but not the red fish). It is a bit eerie.

Moments

I confess...I really only have a couple "moments" in mind as I start this but expect I'll feel inclined to add more...

• At TGI Fridays for dinner last night, I spotted a toddler walking a bit and gszing at me (Mom was close behind so no worries).  Not sure why, but this kid was FASCINATED by me.  She said "hi" just once but visited several times.  Each time, she walked up (we were in a very small booth...one to a side deal) and placed her hand lightly on my forearm and then just stared up at me for a good minute.  She wouldn't shake hands or say a word.  Mom clearly made sure I was cool with it and said she visits a lot when waiting but she'd never seen her reach out physically to a stranger.  I've had young girls go for the hair, but nothing like this.  Total pool of melty-ness where my heart had been.  After the fact, I have decided she was trying to make me get better.
• After dinner, we stopped at BK.  They advertised a new soft-serve machine.  My love for McD's cones is well-documented but BK is MUCH closer and I needed to try (verdict: good, but not the same).  We were near home.  To call our town a suburb of State College is overstating the size of both SC and our town, but it gives the concept.  We share a border and I'd refer to SC if asked where I live by non-locals.  An older man stopped us as we were leaving.  MM had his fancy fun car and the guy wanted to chat about it and share his own fast-driving tales.  One involved a drive to Philly.   He presumed we knew the goal of "City Line Drive" (we do but we'e both from out that way.....3.5h or so).  However, before embarking on the tale, he kindly checked: "Do you know where State College is?"  We were nice and said "Yes" (and too baffled to say anythig else) but I'm curious what he'd had said if we said "No."  "Well, see it is about three miles that way and likely where 75% of this town works and plays."
• In early elementary school (age 7 1/2), Gloria hit NYC.  A benefit of apartment dwelling is one can still visit a friend during a hurricaine and I very vividly recall standing at Michael W.'s window looking out.  We felt so very wise as we remarked people might be confused but should not think the storm was done because it was actually just the eye of the hurricaine.  I have rarely in life felt so incredibly knowledgable.  Though I will admit I still experience moments where I doubt the general public.
• I have become a huge fan of "Linner".  Why save combo meals for Brunch?  I love a 2:30 main meal with lighter fare in the evening.  Actually, I guess that's pretty European.  Which explains why it is uncommon to find others doing it in the quiet world of Central PA (which I actually LOVE, even if I'm shaking my head a bit today at small town life).

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I confess...I'm bullet-pointing but will warn you that most still have a post-op theme. 

• Five-and-a-half months till projected recovery is less than six months...every day is one less.
• I've had HORRID eating habits.  MM goes back to work tomorrow and I'm going back to eating well.  I will NOT deprive myself.  I NEED food to heal, especially protein.  My body may only walk 1m a day, not 9 (and a slow one), but healing burns calories.  The scale is up a bit but not terribly which is proof (and it is in a range I told myself was fine as a post-op spike).
• Read two more books since my review post last week (Harper ones)...reviews to come.  One more on my to-read shelf and three en route (used via Amazon...all under a buck so shipping still made them a good deal).
• Shocking discovery a few weeks ago: I totally love beef jerky.  Seriously.  I'd NEVER EVER have imagined that one.  Frankly, it was available the day after a bit too much fun (our last pre-op hurrah) and I NEED food in that state.  But I've had it totally un-hungover and still found it additively good.
• Still love Pizza Mia for fireballs, cookies, and wraps, but Hofbrau may win for pizza.  Even if they lack a website (and delivery).
• More in character...I also love Vitamin Water Zero and Lifewater 0.  I know they aren't health food, but they are yummy.  And it is easier on my tummy these days than too many bubbles.
• We fed the duckies again today.  There are now two gimpy ducks.  I did my part for my duckie-counterparts to ensure they got lots of bread.
• Waddle, waddle.  The person who has me hooked on this song (well, actually only this line...'cause I kinda waddle), knows who she is.
• Major thanks to the lady on the back forum ho suggested I might be a bit allergic to the steri-strips.  Removing them (w/ the doc nod...they usually fall off but it had been long enough that it was safe to "help" them) did WONDERS for the itching that I blamed on healing.
• You meet a lot of people when you wear a brace.  Today, I was asked (politely) if I'd had back surgery and if it worked.  A bit too early to tell but liked being a bit helpful with some info on the experience.
• Small town love -- We were heading on our walk (short walks are a recovery must for this surgery) and the mail-lady was a few doors away.  She flagged us down b/c she recognized me and needed a signature.  I signed and then she brought it to the door with the rest of the mail.  Loved that she knew me AND went out of her way to make the day a bit easier by saving me a trip to the PO.
• Looking forward to revisiting Pushing Daisies and exploring Wonderfalls thanks to a lovely friend from girlhood who remains on my list of awesome folks 25 years later.  Been watching my gift-to-myself DVDs of Community season 1.  TV on DVD rocks when your medical state makes committing to a movie a bit hard sometimes.
• My days are going to feel long w/o my treadmill time (and with MM back to work tomorrow).  I have my walks, but they aren't (and shouldn't be) as long.  Which makes the second bullet-point an extra challenge.