whine

I confess...this is just going to be me whining.

I'm in pain. A lot of pain. Crawl into the fetal position and cry pain. It is really bad right now. And it has just been constant...not always this severe, but always there. And I'm so tired.

We went out to eat last night...rare for us midweek (I'm telling myself we'll be good on Friday). We were only there about an hour and I really couldn't make it. Though I did enjoy the cheesy comfort food (and ice cream later), just sitting up and looking "normal" was too much.

I don't know what the new doc on Wed can offer. I've never seen much offered for endo. Which is ridiculous. I'm trying to have hope though b/c I kinda need to in order to even get to next week. I'm close to the "just take it all out" point...but there's no promise that even that will work.

I took a pill. They don't always help. And seem to have less and less of an effective time span. Sometimes I still feel the pain but care less (and get numb fingers and lips...). I'll take that right now...even for half an hour.

I warned you. One whine-filled post. But it is all I have to offer.