Thursday, March 17, 2011

not so deep thoughts

I confess....sometimes I have no idea what to write as an intro for a bullet point post...
  • I have an interview tomorrow.  I don't tend to "do" nervous but find I am a bit nervous for this one.  I'm trying to see that as a good sign...I want it.  And not just because I feel a bit useless since I'm not working and can't even really help with housework since I can't move too freely.
  • I am still in a lot of pain.
  • On that note, I've been thinking again about assumptions.  I've been skipping weights entirely and walking really slow at the gym.  I feel self-conscious about that.  I've also been wondering what other gym-goers might assume about my relationship with my body.  I am making assumptions here too, but there are a couple very heavy gym-goers and I sometimes wonder if they have any clue how much I battle my body or assume it is all easier for me since I'm a fit size.
  • Last year, I suggested that Toyota engineered the oil spill since it totally knocked their accelerator issues out of the lead news spot.  It is totally classless to say, but I had a fleeting thought about Libya causing the earthquake.  Yeah, that totally counts against me in the good person tally.
  • I haven't watched Jeopardy as much of late, which is really a commentary on how awful I feel.  I did watch last night though and only one contestant made it to Final Jeopardy.  I'm dorky enough to have found that really interesting....though I do think the contestant looked a bit bored in the game.
  • I got two dozen roses and some chocolates this week from the new guy because he wanted to make me smile when I've been in a lot of pain.  It worked.
  • I used some Target giftcards for new bedding.  I am quite proud of my insight in buying a King-Size comforter set to better fit the Queen-Sized bed that has an extra deep mattress and an additional mattress pad on top.  The "deep pocket" Queen-Size sheets are also a definite improvement...especially with my habit of kicking in my sleep which often demolished the not-quite-fitting regular ones.
  • I have no interest in Saint Patrick's Day.  Well, I have an interest in the Mint Oreo Blizzard-of-the-Month.


Lauren Starks said...

I like hearing (reading) positive thoughts from you. I was introduced to another blog this morning (a girl who eats Paleo but struggles with BED). She made this comment in her "intro" post. I wanted to share...It made me think of you.

Someone once told me that you can never condemn a disordered eater for their habits, because the actions they are taking are the best ways they know how to deal with the demons inside them.

Russell Beets said...

I worry at the gym too. When I go early in the morning there are a few hardcore body builders that I always think are judging me because I don't lift as much weight, and I am usually only at the gym for 45 minutes. I finally had to just get over it and get on with my workouts.

Lauren Starks said...

Duh. I meant to include a link in case you wanted to read....

The Rambling Blogger said...

thanks for the link lauren...i'll check it out.

russ -- it really only gets in my head when i'm in injury mode which i think is b/c i struggle with feeling okay about the reduced workout myself even when i rationally know it is wise. i will go back to one of my old favorite gym comments and say ansley was a GREAT gym for a hetero female...plenty to watch, NO ONE watching me

lee said...

I'm watching Jeopardy right now. They all made it to final Jeopardy today.